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In the last week or so i have (irresponsibly) upscaled the level of my directness (in my blog and not only, but by emails to) in mentioning names of perps who are related to my case. As a result, I think I was delicately approached by GSS, via a person who is a journalist in fact and who entered dialogue with me. He is 'the carrot', and on the other hand I was attacked yesterday, and threatened explicitly by a prominent journalist/blogger (the one who is also engaged in covering satanism/occult), who wrote about me "some people" (like her) are writing in order to commit a terrorist suicide atteck (namely killing others in the process) so that their death will not be forgotten or ignored, something like that. I was positively surprised to see backtalks condemning him. I did not respond, except to alert the blog owner (the one who owns the entire blog-site) that this is a violent threat. (he responded with legalese, refering me to the contracts we have, which exempt him from responsibility to content of blogs). At the same time, and without explanation, my social assistance check for 2 months has been withheld, supposedly for some technical issue, but witout limitation, etc. etc. I have had my internet interrupted for the last week, (today the building's cable was replaced...to account for "frequency" problems that disabled the connection for whole days and in one time 4 days in a row). Today, I saw that the blog was slightly modified, and he says that my writing only triggered an independent thought he had, that writing is driven by a sense of martyrdom...etc. etc. and that he is not free from that as well. He erased the more explicit references to the fact that I am a terrorist, in response to other bloggers backtalks who said he is crossing the lines.<br>--<br>The specific nature of my posts was<br>1. a few emails about my former handler/spouse who apparently is now holding a position in Israel's largest newspaper (in charge of the magazines). I was writing to some journalists asking if they know his whereabouts cause I am concerned he is stalking me again. <br>2. exposing a communication from another blogger/artist - quite a powerful one - who was trying to lure me into relationship, and I believe he knocked out my internet connection (as he turned out to have BSc in computer science and was the Linux/Gnu rep in israel and the internet journalist of some newspaper before he became a famous artist and intellectual). The guy was actually using the pick up phrase "i dreamt about you last night, can we meet ?". <br>3. exposing communication from an Israeli activist from Berlin, who writes in the radical left blogs, but it turns out she is connected with one of the largest law firm of the USA (associated with the repubs) in Berlin, worked for an american pharma corp associated with the Repubs, yet attacks everyone for not being lefty/anti american enough, thus creating rifts and havoc in the few lefty websites. She too initiated a communication with me, via email (and once dropped by to visit me in one of her vacations in Israel), and I sensed she is fishing for info and trying to establish a close connectoin of a 'confession' type, namely, that I confide with her. When she prompted me to establishe skype connection, for our conversations, I decided to check out. yet she went on writing emails, and backtalking in my blog, always doing the same - validating but diverting slightly from the subject and reversing the "guilt" to me. It also turned out she is now doing a career change, from seller of medical/pharma stuff, to a shrink. character.<br> A few hours ago, I spoke with the other, "carrot" journalist who keeps writing to me how talented I am, and wanted to bounce some of my allegations about how the intel community is using women as sex slaves. to counteract the vicious threat, he is validating my experience and offering an ear. He might be ok, but I am not sure if its bad cop good cop, or maybe i should give some more leeway to the carrot. <p></p><i>Edited by: <A HREF=http://p216.ezboard.com/brigorousintuition.showUserPublicProfile?gid=havanagilla>havanagilla</A> at: 6/15/06 3:48 pm<br></i>

Hava, please stop using the s word , no not the 3 letter one.<br><br>Also, what is your strategy for keeping safe ? <p></p><i></i>

<br>What is GSS, please? <p></p><i></i>

blanc, i was just reiterating what the journalist/psychic killer was saying, again and again. but its true that even repeating it creates bad energy. editting soon. thanks. <br><br>chigger- that's the acronym for the local spook-house. <p></p><i></i>

I RI has been a useful souding board for me in assessing the kind of response I might get in 'real life" to various life situations, and stories. --<br> -- I hope the blog/board will continue, despite the temporary disturbances. Jonah advised the sailors to throw him off to the sea in order to remove GOD"s wrath/storm. What the left is usually doing it to throw jonah in order to pacify the wrath of the devil/evildoers. <p></p><i>Edited by: <A HREF=http://p216.ezboard.com/brigorousintuition.showUserPublicProfile?gid=havanagilla>havanagilla</A> at: 6/16/06 1:55 pm<br></i>

You are perhaps angry and impatient for justice in your anger. Please don't be--impatient, that is. You have missed one of the strengths of this board, which is informing the uninformed such as me. It takes time for this kind of information to become absorbed, and you never know when that information might be important. I'm thinking of a trial, for instance, involving RA, whatever.<br><br>As for laying out details with names in order to protect yourself, the only way that would work on this board is if there were someone to inform us of harm to yourself if you were not able to do so. You are not only a victim, but also a witness. You must consider all angles very carefully in order to make your plan. Make it foolproof, is what I'm suggesting. I'm not sure that revealing names and details, in and of itself, is foolproof. <p></p><i></i>

not just the left is incapable of organised and focused assistance to mc/ra survivors. individually a survivor is often in a situation of total need, and probably incapable of formulating requests in a way that takes into account the respondent's capacities - so anyone who tries ends up looking inadequate ; as a collective social problem mc/ra is the power house of evil - what can a few bumbling would be gooders do?<br>perhaps you are right - there is no point in all this hot air, this Righteous Indignation, this notetaking and thinking and dreaming. what is the altenative? Silence, let them get on with their nasty work unremarked and unapposed?<br><br>In absence of strategy, in exposing the way of their working by not naming them but giving enough detail to make an understandable scenario of how they operate, it may make the ground a little harder for them. ( No-one should do that though if it places them in danger ) Its like any resistance to an established totalitarian order - messy, chaotic, ad hoc, leaderless.<br><br>I sense a rage against the comfort zone around those who can comment without much personal fear - and against the multiple misunderstandings there are to work through. <br>Who has knwingly thrown Jonah overboard to pacify the devil? Personally I hope you would only become whalebait if you could guarantee getting regurgitated on a better shore and mustering reinforcements to come to the aid of the storm tossed ship Hava. Only post what is ok for you, but please stick with it.<br><br> <p></p><i></i>

i'm confused at to what the situation is. <p></p><i></i>

i have a better formulation perhaps. I feel that the basic fact of the victimizatoin is being depersonalized and treated as a "disc", or "letter", not a person. Regretfully, those who are herel often times do the same, treat one as a letter. <p></p><i>Edited by: <A HREF=http://p216.ezboard.com/brigorousintuition.showUserPublicProfile?gid=havanagilla>havanagilla</A> at: 6/16/06 1:56 pm<br></i>

Hmm he must have a direct line to God, (to so certainly weigh up human suffering) <p></p><i></i>

well, i erased most of that angry stuff, because i am not sure I will stand behind it tomorrow. i don't think that staying the wrong course is commendable. I have been banging my head long enough to get to the bottom of a certain "strain" or movement, which to some extent appealed to me, and is represented partly on this board. I am a slow (if ever ) learner from mistakes. there is nothing to find out, about people who just view me as a lizard (Jew and Mc victims...wow, that's a catch. almost as good as a convert for the old world missionaries and inquisitors). <br>--<br>there WAS a time for this culture of resistance to the tyranny of the sick emperor (bush and friends), but now it has become a non viable alternative, for me. While Bush is as nazi as it gets, and my gov is as Judenrat as it gets, there is no "canada" anymore, as the one that existed in the times of the original nazis. it has been taken over. Perhaps australia is going to form an independent stand, in terms of anglo world. But it was important for me to get to the bottom of it. so in a way, i don't care anymore if they shut down this board or this entire discussion, its doing nobody any meaningful good, in the struggle against tyrrany. well, talking about it, as in a private kinki club is ok, but really not worth any risk, or personal agony, or trouble. its entertainment of a certain elite.time better spent for most of the people here would be to go to your local community, pick a homeless and feed them. <br>I am pissed cause I was emailed this minute that Rudolf Vrba, a person I feel connected with on a deep level, had actually passed away 2 months ago. I heard this while emailing a professor who knew him, to get me an email interview with him. and she replied, too late, he passed away. <br><br> <p></p><i></i>

Don't despair, hava.<br><br>Maybe you won't find what you need here. If you don't, keep looking.<br><br>But don't ever give up. <p></p><i></i>

<!--EZCODE LINK START--><a href="http://www.Asarian-host.org">Asarian-host</a><!--EZCODE LINK END--> might interest you. It is free anonymous e-mail for survivors. There are also some resources and hosted sites that I hope you find usefull.<br><br>take care <br>brenda <p></p><i></i>

yes, thanks, and for the website too (right now i can't log in there for some reason, will try later).<br>Oh brenda, (can't help recalling the brenda from ROcky Horror Show), have a good weekend too.<br><br> <p></p><i></i>

blanc, I am not EXPECTING anyone to do anything, but egging a victim to make her or his situation worse, while at the same time sitting idly and saying "oh, that government is awful", is not my idea of normalcy. and at the same, those who criticize take very good care to keep in good terms with their <!--EZCODE BOLD START--><strong>own govenrment,</strong><!--EZCODE BOLD END--> and local PTB's. and if they get targetted, they do not display any example of civil resistance. basically, it takes very little to shut people up in the "free world". <br> <p></p><i>Edited by: <A HREF=http://p216.ezboard.com/brigorousintuition.showUserPublicProfile?gid=havanagilla>havanagilla</A> at: 6/17/06 3:15 pm<br></i>