by LilyPatToo » Tue Jul 25, 2006 1:48 am
Candy Jones was programmed right here in Oakland, CA. While her story may have been embellished, from what I've read, it's entirely plausible and era-appropriate as far as its basic story goes. There ARE people who are dissociative enough to be programmed multiples even when recruited as adults. Estabrooks has written about soldiers that he turned into successful couriers and undercover intel agents.<br><br>The advantage of using traumatized children is simply that enormous, complex alter systems can be built and maintained if you get hold of a child early enough and traumatize them brutally enough. At what point the MC boys figured this out, I'm not certain, but most survivors who've retrieved many early memories underwent cult abuse and were sold to the MC programs when they were still very young. Their parents were sometimes given programming instruction at government expense and encouraged to have yet more children to raise in the program.<br><br>Re: memories of ops--if you're properly programmed and your memory barriers are intact, you're unlikely to have any memories of ops you've been used in. But I was not well maintained by my last owner and once I did manage to retrieve a number of memories the morning after an evening when I'd had 3 hours of missing time. But I'm afraid it wasn't a cool "secret agent" type intelligence operation--I was sent on a "date" with a rich old man. Most of the women I know who have Beta alters did much more of that kind of work than they did James Bond stuff.<br><br>If I hadn't found an evening purse lying out on the table that should have been in a drawer, I would never have even realized that I hadn't done what I remembered doing the evening before. I had a cover/screen memory that was *completely real to me*...but that purse shouldn't have been there. When I opened it, it was stuffed full of $100 bills. And that was such a totally impossible thing (we were very poor) that I began calling around until I found the babysitter that I had used and questioned her closely. Even after she'd told me several times how I was dressed and what I'd said to her, I still couldn't believe that it could be true. <br><br>Over the next 24 hours, though, as I struggled to retrieve memories, I managed to get hold of a few and they checked out. If I'd been being maintained properly though, that wouldn't have been possible. There are safeguards in place that should have prevented my recovering those memories. This is the only time I managed to do it, in all these years. Subsequently, I've had some dreams that are almost certainly memories of actual intel ops that I've been used on here in the Bay Area, but I haven't figured out how to confirm them with the details that I recall from the dreams.<br><br>I no longer post anywhere online or tell anyone when I retrieve what may be specific, verifiable program memories, due to having been accessed for memory barrier "tune-ups" immediately after doing it in the recent past. My current handler is a pro.<br><br>LilyPat<br><br> <p></p><i></i>
