by marykmusic » Tue Oct 25, 2005 6:50 pm
Whoever Periwinkle is, thank you for this: <!--EZCODE QUOTE START--><blockquote><strong><em>Quote:</em></strong><hr>Don't bother quitting if you can't face life without it. It will never work until you reslove the circumstance that drives you to it.<hr></blockquote><!--EZCODE QUOTE END--><br><br>I was a daily pot smoker until May of 2002; I was in the process of changing many things in my life which held me back or for whatever reason wasn't working, and that was one of them.<br><br>Some of what was going on at that time, astrologically, was my Chiron Return (age 50/51.) Choices to heal what needs repairing are available. Challenges are seen instead as opportunities. And smoking since the age of 18 was a biggie... I had quit before, but it was "only for now" and I knew I would resume later when the circumstances changed. But the last time, I knew it was permanent.<br><br>There was a time when I snorted a lot of cocaine, and another period when heroin was the drug of choice. Both those things I quit. Boom. Cold. The decision was made.<br><br>And if I could do it, anyone who wanted to could also; nothing special about me, no such thing as "more will power" or "not enough will power."<br><br>As far as pharmaceuticals, once when I quit pot unwillingly (someone stole my plants just before harvest), I asked my doctor for (and got) Valium. It stopped the anxiety that I usually used pot to control, but it sucked... so I got rid of it. Later, diagnosed with "situational depression" (gee, my kids and I were in a homeless shelter, how depressing is that?) I tried a real anti-depressant, of the Prozac class. It didn't help, but I ate so much ice cream that I gained 10 lbs a month. After 30 lbs I quit. My creativity had also deserted me. Gee, pot certainly didn't do THAT.<br><br>Angel dust--- hey, that's monkey tranquilizer, ba-a-a-ad for people (and probably bad for monkeys, too.)<br><br>But none of these things compare with the scourge of American society today: methamphetamines.<br><br>Tweakers suck.<br><br>I certainly did the few times I tried it. Of course, it was because the other guys in the band were doing it, and I prided myself on being "one of the guys."<br><br>Yuck. --MaryK <p></p><i></i>