by havanagilla » Mon Mar 27, 2006 1:46 am
thanks, i'll check this website, i am sure this self-mc/hypnotizing is working to counteract the mind's rationalizations that reinforce the habit. <br>---<br>I tend to agree, regretfully, that normally only "cold turkey" works, but i have seen other cases where a gradual and a very supported quit (with chinese herbs and acupuntutre) worked great, without any pain. this is how a friend of mine who HAd to quit for medical reasons, did it.<br><br>What stopped me this time from cold turkeying was the memory of my previous cold turkey and successful quit, that led me to other dependencies, which were much more devastating (not drugs but a sort of religious addiction and sexual addiction). <br>---<br>I will try the rolled cigs for a while, will tell you if it makes my smoking more "conscious". <br>--<br>In my case, I think the Zyban was a good idea, as it turned out that antidepressants are something I might have needed to help me through this time, AND major plus, it reduces appetite BIG TIME.<br><br>I also noticed that whenever I reduced the tobacco considerably, I experienced emotions that were hard to contain. I think smoking quenches those emotions and this is primarily the reason I smoke. So, releasing those emotions is imperative, and this is what I remind myself, to pep myself in the process. There is a vast ocean of SORROW and ANGER beneath my smoking.<br>ANd I have no support here, no friend, and no nothing where I can pour my heart and even cry decently.<br> its been this way for years now, this isolation, and so cigs were definitely a companion I felt was "the only friend" always there for me and available. giving that crutch up is hard,<br>--<br>I hate this country! my family and all this unbearable life the threw me into, with the hope that I will perish, taking their dark sickening secrets into the grave. Sick and evil people !<br><br> <p></p><i></i>