image dump (warning: disturbing/annoying objects present)

[zhivkov]

i am back for just a bit i stole the
molotov/stalin image Penguin
hope u dont mind-thanks for the
new images guys and gals and
i will try to have some worthwhile
images if i am here tomorrow
thanks for the TOOL OE!
actually i will be honest is stole
a lot of your guys stuff!-Z

You are great Penguin-thanks-for a bit i will try to hunt down young hitler/stalin image-getting very sleepy but its only 540pm in arizona
too early to lay down-my moggy is harassing me too!
cant get all my thoughts together do you or OE know if NIN did a song that had lyrics along the lines of "something i can never have"-i think he did but can't remember the name-Z

[Penguin]

zhivkov:
Sure dont mind - I stole em almost all myself, and mostly without even sayin respects Thats called socializing culture, and actually legally "Fair use"

[OP ED]

NIN -- Something I can Never Have



I still recall the taste of my tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head till I dont want to sleep anymore.

Come on tell me.
Make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
Im down to just one thing.
And Im starting to scare myself.
Make this all go away.
You make this all go way.

I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldnt do the things that I can do now.
This is slowly take me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
I just want something I can never have.
In this place it seems like such a same.
Though it all looks different now,
I know its still the same
Everywhere I look youre all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.

Come on tell me.
Make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
Im down to just one thing.
And Im starting to scare myself.
Make this all go away.
You make this all go way.

I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
I just want something I can never have
Think I know what you meant.
That night on my bed.
Still picking at this scab
I wish you were dead.

Just stains on my sheets.

---

Although the phrase itself appears in other NIN songs and this song exists in several versions (like most NIN songs). I had this on earlier, comrade Z.

*waiting for a phone call*

[Penguin]

OP ED: I had the record that song is from on a cassette ages ago...
Listened to it tens of times...I can still hear it in my head, just thinking bout the song.

[OP ED]

one more for the road, as it fits the theme and my ambivalent feelings.

Tool -- Pushit -- Live (from Salival)


(i) saw the gap again today, while you were begging me to stay. managed to push myself away, and you as well, my dear
and you as well

(know that) I will choke until I swallow... Choke this infant here before me.
What are you but my reflection? Who am I to judge or strike you down? But you're pushing and shoving me.
You still love me and you pushit on me.
Rest your trigger on my finger, bang my head upon the fault line.

Take care not to make me enter. 'cause if I do we both may disappear.

But you're pushing me, shoving me. Pushit on me.
Slipping back into the gap again. I'm alive when you're touching me, alive when you're shoving me down.

Put me somewhere I don't wanna be.
Seeing someplace I don't wanna see.
Never wanna see that place again.

Saw that gap again today as you were begging me to stay. Managed to push myself away, and you, as well (my dear).

If, when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay, you minimize my movement anyway, I must persuade you another way.

There's no love in fear. Staring down the hole again. Hands upon my back again.
Survival is my only friend.
Terrified of what may come.
Just remember I will always love you, even as I tear your fucking throat away.
But it will end no other way.
(there is no other way)

---

Easily one of my favorite songs. And not just because of the neothelemic twilit language.

Laters.

[zhivkov]

Thanks so much OE- I knew if it was out there you would know-its actually a beautiful/eerie song-going to take a listen now-i need to change the ringtone on my phone to NIN-right now it is on speed of sound by coldplay and b4 that burnin for you BOC- I wish I could find an under the table job as a caregiver -because i would pay you to be a guest author on my blog-others here too would qualify-but you would be the first-it may crash and burn like everything else i have tried to do-but i want to 'give it a go'-i dont know where i picked up brit 'sayings' not the right word i was searching for one that started with a c -i have been to the sceptr'd isle but its not as if i have ties there-tool has some great tunes too and some incredible videos

[zhivkov]

Here are some things I have picked up the first is really kind of sad but reminds me of so much-loosely translated
Cavafy: You'll always end up in this city. Don't look for things elswhere.
There's no ship for you, no road out.
Just as you've ruined your life here, in this small corner,
you've destroyed it now utterly everywhere in the world

Yevtushenko: If any man who dies there dies with him,
his first snow and kiss and fight......
Not people die but worlds die in them

Kind of depressing, but for some reason I liked these. Have a great eve all
and tomorrow also-Z

[Penguin]

Nice, first snow of the winter today. Good snowstorm. Hope it keeps on till morning!

Pics:













Tomorrow Im gonna change studded tires to my bike.

[Penguin]

[OP ED]

[Penguin]

Birdwatching...

[zhivkov]

thanks for the new stuff oe and penguin-the snow pics are lovely
if i was on my own computer i would do more image stealing!-z

[OP ED]

(my copy of Book 4, I-IV)

[OP ED]

strange days.





i woke up in a friend's room last nite/this morning. this was playing on tv. i haven't seen it in probably ten years. i remember when i was a boy and i first saw it, that it gave me extremely conflicted dreams.



(for those who haven't seen it, it is classic alien woman/vampire film, based on a Colin Wilson book)

[Mathilda May might be the reason the movie was fairly successful for mid-budget throwaway scif-fi, as she saved them considerable wardrobe expenses]




[Patrick Stewart was in that movie? I must have missed him]





Here's to nekkied alien vampire wimmen killing british soldiers to reanimate their living angelic spacecraft!

Let's drink:











WARNING! Public Service Announcement:

drinking is unhealthy, please reconsider your lifestyle and/or at least moderate it.



{no swimming comrades, till you can feel your toes}



Always wear a safety belt, for your own protection, and the peace of mind of your family and/or friends.

and most importantly, always remember you can always switch to a less dangerous lifestyle (unless you count american prisons as dangerous)



Love is Law,
SHCR
{DNL}

[zhivkov]

Love the new pics-all that vodka! I saw the Life Force movie at the theater-what was it about 85? Bizarre movie but it also affected me after watching it. Got to give a shout out to alien vampires every now and then-well my heart has been predictably crushed and this time i dont know if i can go back-tho i will always feel drawn towards the one i am losing/have lost-never knew what it was with us anyway-the human heart is very hard to figure out-of all my lovers 'd' was by far the best looking and has a body you could make a statue of-but it was never this with me-it was always his eyes-literally so dark and deep sometimes i felt like i could drown in them-well i am sure no one wants to hear me ramble on about my nutty life-love this thread-still on the hunt for nathans pic-peace and be well all of you-i will come back with an image next time-z
god i would give anything for some doobage or a quality vodka that you could drink straight-just chilled-no ice, like the russkies do
missed the saved them considerable wardrobe expenses-hehe haven't used the dancbroc emoticon yet-straange days indeed- i wonder if Jeff would let us have the dancing banana carrying an 'I'd Hit It' sign?-i like that one for some reason