Nah. Everything is futile when it comes down to it. The days wear on and entropy ensues. This is why I believe there is a greater soul. Jeff got into DNA shit awhile back. And I wondered while I watched this dying bee this morning where it's soul was as it struggled to keep on living. It has to have one. And I believe, I think, "the soul" is shared in the Universal Free Realms. Maybe because I am "modern" I just picture how that little thing's "mind" works. I cannot tell, but I felt bad watching it die and watching it suffer.
I also thought about the trees around me and began to think that they actually "move" more than us when it comes down to it. They continually grow. Given the ratio of their lifespans they could actually move more than we do if given the opportunity of getting chopped down by a human or human caused fire or something.
Again, I am going to relay the story of the trees. I went to an old growth forest and the trees literally communicated with me. Mind meld type shit. I've never been the same since. I look at everything differently because of, what the "trees told me". It wasn't a cognizant happening. I literally listened to the trees and I heard their voices. No, not halucinating or nothing. A little buzzed on beer and maybe a few hits of weed. But I was all alone, just me and the trees, plants really, and they fucking told me that they felt sorry for us and explained some issues. It was really strange, just being alone among the trees and river and shit at the foot of Mt. Rainier all alone. What they said is that we're fucked and wished us no harm -- they had spent billions of years figuring this shit out, is how I took it. They told me that they are an ancient network that has existed for billions of years. What I perceived of "them" saying "network". Nature, in our terms is one fucking vast and ancient network.
...here are two of us who are basically skeptical, but also spiritual in the sense of the cosmos will always unveil something new to you.
Thank you for that. Sincerely.
For almost two decades I sunk further and further into the depths of skepticism. I was verging on the brink of naive realism, and the price was growing greater and greater. I've seen enough over the years to know better. In the last few months, I've been clawing my way back to the spiritual perception of my younger years. Reading your words help reinforce that I'm heading in the right direction.
Sorry to derail. Back to your program already in progress.
