FugitiveInitiate wrote:Over 50 years old now and yes the triggers are still powerful and the memories still invade.
with help and support, you eventually learn to say of childhood/ritual abuse "it's in the past, it's not happening now."
but on THIS day, this night.... the most horrible part is the reality and certainty that it IS happening now - somewhere, to someone. to innocent people and helpless animals. and you know too well how it all goes down, on this night.
there's a confusing mix of relief and guilt that you got out and lived your life, knowing others were not, or won't be, as fortunate.
Thanks Fugitive, beautifully put. I've thought of you lately after reading old threads. I went full circle too, now back into doing the costume thing and may even go out this night, but not without guilt, or awareness, and wishing I had a video camera, a vehicle, and some leads, but then what to do with the recordings is one escapes?