Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby FourthBase » Sun Sep 05, 2010 3:42 pm

semper occultus wrote:...psychiatrists are deeply scary people....even if they have moved on from the old ice-pick inserted behind the eye-ball routine...


Every time I speak to anyone in the field of psychology nowadays, in the course of the conversation I will remind them how barbaric the supposed professionals of their time (100-200-300 years ago) treated the mentally distressed. They concur. I remind them that we look back on them, and say, "How could they have done such horrible things to those people?" They concur. Then I ask them, "100-200-300 years from now, what will civilized humans be saying about the way we are mistreating mental patients today?" They usually are taken aback by such an obvious but strange-to-them notion, and forced to ponder that scenario. No one likes to consider how their present behavior and seemingly unassailable precepts will be judged by future generations. It offends the ego. But there it is: The guarantee (not an overstatement, it is an indisputability) that in the distant (hopefully not TOO distant) future, more enlightened humans will judge us harshly. We will seem like monsters to them. And for the most part, rightfully so.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby Sounder » Sun Sep 05, 2010 3:58 pm

And thank you to anyone else who has sludged their way or will sludge their way through the unbroken blocks of ceaseless communication above.


I liked it, it's great to hear from you again FB.

Thanks and welcome back.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby semper occultus » Mon Sep 06, 2010 1:21 pm

The Air Loom Gang: James Tilly Matthews and his visionary madness

by Mike Jay nthposition.com

There were two compelling reasons why, in 1810, the resident apothecary at the Royal Bethlem Hospital - Bedlam - wrote the first ever book-length psychiatric report on a mad patient's delusions. One was professional: the delusions in question were the most unusual and systematic that anyone had ever come across. The other was rather more personal: the apothecary, John Haslam, was determined to prove, against a great deal of contrary opinion, that the patient was indeed mad, and by the same token that he himself was the model for a new and specialist category of doctor.

His patient's name was James Tilly Matthews, and his view of the world had by this point become one of the strangest ever recorded in the annals of psychiatry. Haslam's account is still acknowledged as the first example in history of the now-familiar notion of mind control by an 'influencing machine'. For everyone who has since had messages beamed at them through fillings, mysterious implants or TV sets, or via hi-tech surveillance, MI5, Masonic lodges or UFOs, James Tilly Matthews is Patient Zero.

Matthews was convinced that outside the grounds of Bedlam, in a basement cellar by London Wall, a gang of villains were controlling and tormenting his mind with diabolical rays. They were using a machine called an 'Air Loom', of which Matthews was able to draw immaculate technical diagrams, and which combined recent developments in gas chemistry with the strange force of animal magnetism, or mesmerism. It incorporated keys, levers, barrels, batteries, sails, brass retorts and magnetic fluid, and worked by directing and modulating magnetically charged air currents, rather as the stops of an organ modulate its tones. It ran on a mixture of foul substances, including 'spermatic-animal-seminal rays', 'effluvia of dogs' and 'putrid human breath', and its discharges of magnetic fluid were focused to deliver thoughts, feelings and sensations directly into Matthews' brain. There were many of these mind-control settings, all classified by vivid names: 'fluid locking', 'stone making', 'thigh talking', 'lobster-cracking', 'bomb-bursting', and the dreaded 'brain-saying', whereby thoughts were forced into his brain against his will. To facilitate this process, the gang had implanted a magnet into his head. As a result of the Air Loom, Matthews was tormented constantly by delusions, physical agonies, fits of laughter and being forced to parrot whatever nonsense they chose to feed into his head. No wonder some people thought he was mad.

The Air Loom was being run by a gang of undercover Jacobin revolutionaries, bent on forcing Britain into a disastrous war with Revolutionary France. These characters, too, Matthews could describe with haunting precision. They were led by a puppet-master named 'Bill the King'; all details were recorded by his second-in-command, 'Jack the Schoolmaster'. The French liaison was accomplished by a woman called Charlotte, who seemed to Matthews to be as much a prisoner as himself, and was often chained up near-naked. 'Sir Archy' was a woman who dressed as a man and spoke in obscenities; the machine itself was operated by the sinister, pockmarked and nameless 'Glove Woman'. If Matthews were to see any of these characters in the street, they would grasp batons of magnetic metal which would cause them to disappear.

But all this activity wasn't directed solely at Matthews. There were many Air Loom gangs all over London, influencing the minds of politicians and public figures, and with a particularly firm grasp of the Prime Minister, William Pitt. They were lurking in streets, theatres and coffee-houses, where they tricked the unsuspecting into inhaling the magnetic fluid which would place them under the control of the Air Loom. By poisoning the minds of politicians on both sides of the Channel with paranoid 'brain-sayings', they were threatening national and international catastrophe.

Matthews had originally been committed to Bedlam after standing up in the public gallery of the House of Commons and accusing the Home Secretary, Lord Liverpool, of treason. When examined, he insisted that he had been involved in top secret peace negotiations between the British and French governments, but had been betrayed by the Pitt administration and left to rot in a Paris dungeon. At the time, his convoluted narrative of plot, counter-plot and conspiracy had been seen as a symptom of his grandiose madness. But a great deal of it was true.

Matthews had been a well-to-do tea broker, originally from Wales, who had strong Republican sympathies and, after the French Revolution, began travelling between London and Paris as a self-appointed peacemaker, trying to head off the looming war between France and England. Initially, he had spectacular success in persuading the moderate Republican faction that Britain would sooner be at peace than at war with a stable and constitutional French nation, and met several times with Pitt, Lord Liverpool and others to attempt to sell them on his secret proposal. But the moderate leaders with whom Matthews was negotiating had lost power to the hard-line Jacobins, and Matthews had been arrested on suspicion of being an English double agent. He was imprisoned for three years during the height of the Terror; when he was released and returned to England, and began accusing the cabinet of washing their hands of him, they denied all knowledge of his mission.

So Matthews may have been delusional, but his wild conspiracy theories held more than a grain of truth. Furthermore, when he wasn't under assault from the Air Loom, he appears to have been extremely lucid and articulate. Certainly his family didn't believe that he was mad; their view was that he was a good-natured man, a peacemaker, who had become eccentric as a result of his misfortunes and had developed cranky views on politics. But John Haslam, Matthews' overseer at Bedlam, had strong opinions about the nature of insanity. As he put it in his book on Matthews, Illustrations of Madness, "Madness being the opposite to reason and good sense, as light is to darkness, straight is to crooked &c., it appears wonderful that two opposite opinions could be entertained on the subject". Matthews was mad, and anyone who argued otherwise was a danger to the medical profession.

Some of Haslam's prickliness can perhaps be put down to the fact that Bedlam itself was, at the time, a fairly eccentric institution. Apart from Haslam, there was a resident physician, DrThomas Monro, who showed up about once a month, and a surgeon, Bryan Crowther, whose passion was dissecting the brains of lunatics and who himself lapsed terminally into alcoholism and lunacy to the point where 'he was so insane as to have a strait-waistcoat'. This left Haslam as the sole bulwark of sanity, dealing with Matthews on a daily basis.

The asylum system's recently-granted powers to restrain and imprison the mad came at a price: they needed to demonstrate that their patients would be a danger to the public if freed. Haslam was in no doubt that Matthews was dangerous: he had harassed Lord Liverpool and, in any case, "there are already too many maniacs allowed to enjoy a dangerous liberty". But Matthews' family persisted with the case that he was merely a mistreated gentle soul, and moreover that he had learnt to control his oddness in public. In 1809 they engaged two London doctors, Henry Clutterbuck and George Birkbeck, to examine Matthews independently. They both concluded that he was in his right mind, and that his alleged symptoms of madness - hostility to authority and insistence that he was being conspired against - were equally understandable as the response of a sane man unjustly confined.

On the basis of this testimony, Matthews' family brought a writ of Habeas Corpus against Bedlam, forcing the governors to state their precise legal reasons for holding him. They produced a stack of affidavits from other doctors contradicting Clutterbuck and Birkbeck's testimony, but the case eventually turned on a letter from Lord Liverpool, who insisted that Matthews was a dangerous lunatic who should be confined in perpetuity. So the writ failed, but on grounds which suggested that Matthews' alleged lunacy was irrelevant: he was effectively, though apparently unconstitutionally, being confined as a state prisoner.

It was the ambiguity of this verdict that turned Haslam's insistence that Matthews was mad into a personal vendetta. His book opened with a broadside against Clutterbuck and Birkbeck: they weren't psychiatrists, they'd only examined Matthews briefly rather than living with him for years, and "how they failed to detect his insanity is inexplicable". At stake in this was not only Haslam's personal reputation but that of Bedlam and, ultimately, the entire question of the medical profession's role in treating the mad. Haslam's strategy was simply to detail Matthews' madness at unprecedented length and allow it to speak for itself. In addition to writing Illustrations of Madness, he took possession of extensive writings by Matthews as evidence, including a manuscript he had written in 1804 calling himself "James, Absolute Sole and Sacred Omni Imperious Arch Grand Arch Sovereign Omni Imperious Arch Grand Arch Proprietor Omni Imperious Arch-Grand-Arch-Emperor Supreme", and offering millions of pounds in rewards to every nation on earth for the capture of the Air Loom Gang. On this, Haslam must have felt, he could rest his case.

But while Haslam was assembling these damning illustrations of Matthews' madness, Matthews was engaged in illustrating his own sanity. He learnt architectural drawing and engraving, and drew up accomplished plans for a new Bedlam building which so impressed the governors that they paid him £30 in recognition of his 'labour and abilities'. In 1814 he was moved to a more congenial private asylum, Fox's London House in Hackney, where he became a much loved and trusted inmate. Dr Fox regarded him as entirely sane, and he assisted with book-keeping, gardening and management of the house until his death in 1815.

Yet Matthews' death was not the end of the saga. A House of Commons Committee, set up in 1815 to investigate complaints of malpractice in Bedlam, brought his case back from the grave.
Various witnesses testified that Haslam had been so frustrated by Matthews' refusal to accept his own madness and the doctor's authority that he had chained him up in punishment - a practice which had become emblematic of the bad old days of the madhouse, and which Haslam had specifically criticised in his own books. Other staff members testified that Matthews had been a harmless and talented eccentric, and Haslam's persecution of him had been irrational and sadistic. When the Committee's report was published in 1816, John Haslam was dismissed by the Bedlam governors.
His career was ruined. He sold everything he owned, doggedly retrained as a physician and eventually qualified as a full MD at the age of sixty. But Matthews' case seems to have destroyed his conviction that the mad could be unfailingly distinguished from the sane. In his old age, he appeared as a forensic witness in a court case, and was asked if the defendant was of sound mind. His reply was: "I never saw any human being who was of sound mind". When pressed on this opinion, he simply added: "I presume the Deity is of sound mind, and He alone".
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby norton ash » Tue Sep 07, 2010 3:18 pm

Thanks, Semper. It could make a great steam-punk film...
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby FourthBase » Mon Feb 18, 2013 4:46 am

Bump, because I'd like for people to be conscious of it as they read anything I write.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby brainpanhandler » Tue Feb 19, 2013 2:51 pm

FourthBase wrote:Bump, because I'd like for people to be conscious of it as they read anything I write.


Since I don't intend on putting you on ignore for any time in the forseeable future and I might occasionally read what you write here and interact with you I'd like some clarification if you please. Something which I would think you would be happy to do if your statement above is in earnest.

1) Am I supposed to take note that the legal and psychiatric establishement confined and heavily medicated you and de facto attempted to get you to be suicidal? If so, in what way should that inform my impression/interpretation of what you write here?

and/or

2) Am I supposed to take note that you have a history of suicidal ideation, pharmacologically induced or not? If so, in what way should that inform my impression/interpretation of what you write here?

and/or

3) I don't know. What am I supposed to be taking note of? and in what way should that inform my impression/interpretation of what you write here?
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby FourthBase » Tue Feb 19, 2013 3:35 pm

brainpanhandler wrote:
FourthBase wrote:Bump, because I'd like for people to be conscious of it as they read anything I write.


Since I don't intend on putting you on ignore for any time in the forseeable future and I might occasionally read what you write here and interact with you I'd like some clarification if you please. Something which I would think you would be happy to do if your statement above is in earnest.

1) Am I supposed to take note that the legal and psychiatric establishement confined and heavily medicated you and de facto attempted to get you to be suicidal? If so, in what way should that inform my impression/interpretation of what you write here?

and/or

2) Am I supposed to take note that you have a history of suicidal ideation, pharmacologically induced or not? If so, in what way should that inform my impression/interpretation of what you write here?

and/or

3) I don't know. What am I supposed to be taking note of? and in what way should that inform my impression/interpretation of what you write here?


More like, you are reading something written by someone officially designated by the state as "crazy". Obviously, I'm not crazy. Well, maybe like 1 or 3 or 5% crazy. Nothing all that abnormal. A good, useful craziness. Anyway...well, to be honest, I was bumping it for someone who was considering joining the board and whom I had told that my couple of bouts with semi-insanity were recorded for posterity here. So, I bumped it. Looking at the wording of the bump now, yeah, it does seem to be implying something cryptic, ominous. There probably is an ominous implication. Like, while my involuntary confinement was almost certainly the result of a chain of miserable misunderstandings and overreactions; and a dollop of my own temporary hypomania; and the habits and legal impunity of a horrendous psychiatric industry -- and not some politically-motivated plot to silence, discredit, or drive me to suicide (which would never ever ever work, anyway) -- it might be instructive for anyone to know what could be in store and how to persevere in the event of a politically-driven institutionalization? Or, it could just be instructive (and entertaining) to remind yourself if I'm being a prick that I was pwn3d with swift irony once upon a time shortly after being my most douche-y and contentious here. Heck, it'll be good for me to conscious of it, too. Humble pie.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby Canadian_watcher » Tue Feb 19, 2013 4:01 pm

as far as I'm concerned, if the world doesn't think you're off your rocker then you aren't living the way you were meant to! :D

and second, I hope you've forgiven your sister. I have a brother. let's just leave it at that.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby conniption » Tue Feb 19, 2013 5:05 pm

I remember this thread.

It scared me back then and it scares me now...because you're so damn good, and look what happens. Those weren't delusions of grandeur, sir, you are most certainly One Grand Writer, and I only wish I had a fraction of your ability to put words on paper. (but, you already knew that.)

The bit about contacting the Scientologists was the funniest thing EVER. How desperate is that?

Anyhow, I wasn't going to intrude on your thread, because you don't really know me and I don't know you, and it all seems rather personal, but this bit of news hit the airwaves and maybe it belongs on your thread.

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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby FourthBase » Tue Feb 19, 2013 5:11 pm

Yeah, back to normal-ish with the family. I forgave everyone. Except for Doctor Mao, lol. I hope very unpleasant things happen to him, such as exactly what he has inflicted on countless vulnerable blameless souls. I hate that bastard. Always will, unless I discovered that he himself had been given the Mao treatment and was locked half-naked and weeping in a padded cell, at which point I would begin to pity him. (I was never subjected to that extreme, thankfully, but others on the floor were.)
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby FourthBase » Tue Feb 19, 2013 5:19 pm

conniption wrote:I remember this thread.

It scared me back then and it scares me now...because you're so damn good, and look what happens. Those weren't delusions of grandeur, sir, you are most certainly One Grand Writer, and I only wish I had a fraction of your ability to put words on paper. (but, you already knew that.)

The bit about contacting the Scientologists was the funniest thing EVER. How desperate is that?

Anyhow, I wasn't going to intrude on your thread, because you don't really know me and I don't know you, and it all seems rather personal, but this bit of news hit the airwaves and maybe it belongs on your thread.

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Thank you.

Yeah, I still chuckle thinking about that CoS "lawyer" leaving a message crazier than anything I was hearing that week in a TV room full of some of the city's craziest people. Wish I'd saved it. And of course, the irony of me of all people feeling desperate enough to call them, lmfao, ahhh...good times.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby elfismiles » Tue Feb 19, 2013 5:43 pm

thanks for bumping this thread! it is synchronistic for me because of the Air Loom bit ... I was just telling some friends / coworkers about that last week and had told them I'd get back with them, send them an email link with the info ... but i'd completely forgotten- until I clicked on this thread! :yay

Also, glad you are among the free and sane.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby FourthBase » Thu Feb 21, 2013 1:53 am

More like, you are reading something written by someone officially designated by the state as "crazy". Obviously, I'm not crazy.


Of course, as with almost any catastrophe that is survivable, there's an upside. (Bless-ed antifragility!) The worst thing that has ever happened to me, made me stronger. (Nietzsche be praised!) It also gifted me a kind of cloak of invisibility, and in the event of being spotted, a kind of deflector shield. Here's what I mean. Having been officially adjudicated "crazy" probably means that, if I were ever to be perceived as a threat to the Sociopath Establishment, there would be an easy go-to option for them to try to minimize me, before or instead of, say, violence. It's as if my mother dipped me in a psychiatric River Styx. Except, with the purpose of leaving one ankle exposed and vulnerable, as if to lure enemies to attack it, instead of my skull or heart. For that (as well as many, many other things), I am actually grateful to her. In the lowest depths of those three weeks, I entertained the wild improbable possibility that my family (at the urging of, say, one of my military relatives with top-secret clearance, of whom there are at least two) gaslit me and then had me committed in that more exotic long-view sense of "for my own good", instead of the nauseating prosaic sense. It was a possibility I didn't entertain for long, but the few times I did, it gave me a spirit-lifting chuckle. But here's the thing: They might as well have. I may now have a license, or maybe just a learner's permit, to say whatever the fuck I want, anywhere. It could be revoked, I'm sure. Quite unpleasantly, I bet. But in the meantime, all the Evil Bastards in Chief need to do to me is point, produce some medical records, and say, "Him? He's a lunatic. Nothing to pay attention to here, move along." And it would then be up to me to demonstrate otherwise; up to anyone reading or listening to me to be persuaded, or not. "I don't know, man, they say that dude is crazy, but..." In fact, I'm not so sure how badly I would even want to demonstrate my overwhelming sanity. There are probably some priceless advantages to a Hamlet strategy, as long as you don't go around stabbing at curtains. As long as you don't mind too much seeming to some people like "something only marginally mammalian", lol. I think I'd rather be as sane as I really am, though, and see where that leads me.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby JackRiddler » Sat Feb 23, 2013 9:57 am

You know, when Hamlet stabbed the curtain he thought he was killing the king. Contrary to the lazy interpretation of the play, he wasn't doomed by indecision. Until that point he was rightly suspicious of his own motives, as both son and legitimate heir of the allegedly murdered king. He didn't want to act rashly and didn't want to believe a ghost. He wanted some kind of material proof that the king had killed his father, before taking actions that could lead to his own execution, or set off a civil war. He was committed to due process, in a way. The king's reaction to his strategem of the play-within-the-play had finally provided the proof he sought, in his eyes. But the stabee behind the curtain turned out to be Polonius. So it was not Hamlet's intellectual over-thinking that got him into intractable trouble, as in the usual interpretation, but his first impulsive, decisive, manly action that made all further action increasingly difficult, complicated, and liable to pile up the bystanders' bodies.

I really, really, really, really appreciate and honor the straight-talking, unvarnished monologues you're giving us. Thank you.
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Re: Less Serious Business: For Old Time's Sake!

Postby brainpanhandler » Sat Feb 23, 2013 1:36 pm

FourthBase wrote:it might be instructive for anyone to know what could be in store and how to persevere in the event of a politically-driven institutionalization?


I've been considering a response to this for a couple of days. I'll say I've had my own experiences with incarceration, as have others here. That's not an adjustment I ever want to have to make again. I don't find it hard though to imagine a future where sitting next to a sunny window, staring out through the bars, I have a moment of clarity and realize how insane I or the world must really be for me to prefer being in a cage.


Or, it could just be instructive (and entertaining) to remind yourself if I'm being a prick that I was pwn3d with swift irony once upon a time shortly after being my most douche-y and contentious here. Heck, it'll be good for me to conscious of it, too. Humble pie.


I'll remember this and quote it if need be. Frankly I greeted your reappearance with trepidation. You really could be a grade A jackass in the past. Just about intolerable. Here's to a different future.

riddler wrote:I really, really, really, really appreciate and honor the straight-talking, unvarnished monologues you're giving us.


I'll second this. Honest, straightforward, coherent and unpretentious prose using whole english sentences that require some care and consideration in constructing show a respect for the reader and the board in general. It's 90% of being a good citizen here in my book.

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Depends on what kind of war one is fighting and how one defines strength. Sometimes the battlefield is solely within oneself. In fact maybe those are the only battles worth fighting. Sitting by the barred window, listening to the birds sing and slipping in and out of consciousness as the sunlight filtered through the leaves weaves dappled patterns on the floor will I be able think back wistfully to a time when incarceration was unbearable or will time and the pharmaceuticals have killed that version of me?

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