You know chuang tzu's butterfly routine, he dreams he's a butterfly, and when he wakes up he can't be sure he isn't the butterfly dreaming he's chuang tzu.
We say, that's cute, but let's be reasonable, obviously he's the man and not the butterfly. Maybe we're agnostic, say we can't know one way or the other. What I'm personally saying that is he's talking about something entirely different, dreams and butterflies and chuang tzu are some symbols he's using to say it. Am I in a world of suffering, dreaming of a world without suffering, or do I come from a world without?
So I come from that world without suffering, into this nightmare world of suffering. Or I come from the nightmare world, and the world without suffering is just a dream. I can obviously see from the second perspective, it has been fed to me since before I could write. I just don't see where it gets us in terms of getting to the dreamworld where there is no suffering. So I choose to explore the second perspective, as a way to end suffering here in nightmare world. I think there is practical potential in it, besides it being something I feel intuitively.
So I say the world without suffering is here, now, inside, and everyone would laugh. I'm just too stupid to realize that the world without suffering is only a dream now, or in a future measured in kalpas, eons. Any sooner manifestation of the world without suffering would take a miracle, a rewrite, a move to the best timeline, somehow. An infinity gauntlet.