AlicetheKurious » Thu Dec 10, 2015 1:33 am wrote:That's what I meant. Not any specific mother, just mothers, collectively. There's no safer or more wonderful place to be, than among mothers collectively. Even for the mothers themselves.
Unless as a grown adult, you are forced as a son that kinda hated his mother growing up, to totally help your mother when the push came to shove of the reality of the situation as she grows older. With my mom, she was strict as fuck with me because for some reason I was born a rebel. I do now, but I never followed no rules. I have since tempered, but I don't follow rules, by rule. I do think that she taught me to be "feisty" and that she is, but now she has run out of gas. So from all the bridges she burned over the last decades I felt that I was the very last bridge that could exist for her. She'll never read this, so I will feel free to comment about this.
She took all my toys out of my room for months because James Dobson (Right Wing Focus on the Family) told her so because I didn't behave in a Christian manner/way. The rules were not "sinking in" as it were. She still hasn't apologized for this and I can't bring this trauma up to her because she has never made a mistake and I will "hurt her further" if I did.
Anyhoo, financially poor ass me is paying for his not so gracious upbringing because I have just enough. She did bring me a birthday present though.
Which happens to be today.
There is no me. There is no you. There is all. There is no you. There is no me. And that is all. A profound acceptance of an enormous pageantry. A haunting certainty that the unifying principle of this universe is love. -- Propagandhi